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[13 Dec 2007|02:04am] |
i've completed all of my work for this semester. i already received one evaluation. i'm more than pleased with it.
now its time to start the real work.
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[28 Nov 2007|10:51pm] |
i watched an inconvenient truth tonight with one of my classes. it was well done and quite alarming.
but i wasn't filled with a want for change.
it won't be jolt me into action
seeing the projected flooding in manhatten and around the world brought a smile to my face
seeing enormous chunks of ice fall to the sea made me think: "the world is getting rid of us. let it happen."
maybe "us" isn't right to say. the world is getting rid of all the accumulated bullshit. the genocides, the wars, the lies, the greed.
all of these concepts are so foreign to the natural world. it has come to a point where earth's own consciousness will not allow it any further.
i say bring on the ice age.
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[25 Nov 2007|11:23pm] |
night hikes seem to produce a wealth of surprises.
ant and i hiked hook mountain the night i came back from hampshire. a successful journey through the gray. once more i encountered a mountain top and dense fog. this time the clouds above parted to expose the moon. her rays illuminated the ground and fog around us. i was able to pick up the coloration of the moon's light better than i have ever before.
last night, saturday, james accompanied ant and i on anther journey up hook. this climb was the first i was able to observe the contrast of summer time woods and fall woods. with most of the leaves being gone, the hudson, its banks, and the bridge are visible without having the clear the tree tops. it was a completely different experience. night time also proved to bring the change ever more present. it was clear and with civilization below all lit up, its distance was felt more. once we reached the top, the sky overwhelmed me. with the sparse but present cloud cover light added varied hues to the sky. the moon, near full, created a pale purple and green streak right above us. lights from down below created a yellow and orange mass to the southeast. once settled and observant, more was to be seen and heard. the wailing and yelping of coyotes captivated me. it was my first time hearing them so clearly and for so long. not only that but was it near a full moon, in a spot i see as sacred, and an owl was perched no more than five feet from us. right where we were, on a thin and curved post of a tree, sat this owl. silent. unmoving. i couldn't identify it as to not disturb it.
we then left the owl to go to a spot that was shared by a man hiking these woods all of his life. ant and james were up around the area one day and a man carrying rocks bounded to them. they talked and he told them they were nice guys and that there is a pink bench not too far down the trail. it was brought by him and a friend about 30 years ago. the bench was a full sized one. large for two to carry and up some steep inclines. the spot they put it in couldnt have been better. to get to it you have to go down this very steep hill. i found myself more inclined to slide down it than to have to walk it in tiny strides. its a little nook in the ridge, isolated from the trail, and the perfect spot for that pink bench.
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as i was listening to "the white worm" a hall mate knocks on my door and asks me to turn down the bass
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[21 Oct 2007|02:32pm] |
Ten years after OK Computer shocked the world, Radiohead released In Rainbows on October 10 (10/10). Though no one was expecting the album to be released until 2008, Radiohead announced In Rainbows just ten days in advance. In Rainbows, which consists of ten letters, has ten tracks, and would be downloadable from a rumored ten servers.
Radiohead preceded the release of In Rainbows with nine cryptic messages. They repeatedly emphasized X, the Roman Numeral for ten, in phrases such as “March Wa X”, and “Xendless Xurbia”. The tenth message was posted on October 10 with a photo of the band drinking tea.
There has been a lot of speculation over Radiohead’s emphasis of ten surrounding the release of In Rainbows. One theory suggests that Radiohead was typifying a binary code of ones and zeros, 1010101010. This has come to be known as the Binary Theory, also called the TENspiracy by some.
Puddlegum first addressed the Binary Theory in Radiohead: 1010101010. Someone associated with Thom Yorke contacted Puddlegum, sharing Thom’s reaction to Puddlegum’s article:
“The meaning behind all of this is right in front of our faces, we’re just overlooking it. [Thom] has been expecting an article much like this one for a couple of years, as have I. But I’m willing to wager he’ll have fun waiting a few more. On the other hand, it seems to annoy him that no one ‘gets it’ yet, given the mountain of clues.”
Ten days after our original article, we have come to believe that OK Computer and In Rainbows were meant to complement each other. During the writing and recording process of OK Computer, Radiohead used the working title of Zeros and Ones. If OK Computer is represented by 01, and In Rainbows is represented by 10, then we have 01 and 10. In binary code 01 and 10 complement each other.
Consider that In Rainbows was meant to complement OK Computer, musically, lyrically, and in structure. We found that the two albums can be knit together beautifully. By combining the tracks to form one playlist, 01 and 10, we have a remarkable listening experience. The transitions between the songs are astounding, and it appears that this was done purposefully.
The lyrics also seem to complement each other. There appears to be a concept flowing through the 01 and 10 playlist. Ideas in one song is picked up by the next, such as “Pull me out of the aircrash,” and “When I’m at the pearly gates, this will be my videotape.”
To create the 01 and 10 playlist, begin with OK Computer’s track one, Airbag, and follow this with In Rainbow’s track one, 15 Step. Alternate the albums, track by track, until you reach Karma Police on OK Computer, making All I Need the tenth track on the 01 and 10 playlist. Follow Karma Police with Fitter Happier from OK Computer, for tracks eleven and twelve. These two tracks act as a bridge between the first ten and the following ten tracks on the 01 and 10 playlist. Then continue to alternate the albums again, picking up with Faust Arp on In Rainbows, with Electioneering on OK Computer as the following track.
Radiohead - 01 and 10 playlist:
1. Airbag (OK Computer)
2. 15 Step (In Rainbows)
3. Paranoid Android (OK Computer)
4. Bodysnatchers (In Rainbows)
5. Subterranean Homesick Alien (OK Computer)
6. Nude (In Rainbows)
7. Exit Music (For A Film) (OK Computer)
8. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi (In Rainbows)
9. Let Down (OK Computer)
10. All I Need (In Rainbows)
11. Karma Police (OK Computer)
12. Fitter Happier (OK Computer)
13. Faust Arp (In Rainbows)
14. Electioneering (OK Computer)
15. Reckoner (In Rainbows)
16. Climbing Up The Walls (OK Computer)
17. House Of Cards (In Rainbows)
18. No Surprises (OK Computer)
19. Jigsaw Falling Into Place (In Rainbows)
20. Lucky (OK Computer)
21. Videotape (In Rainbows)
22. The Tourist (OK Computer)
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[20 Oct 2007|01:11pm] |
Last night was interesting. Sitting in my friends room, Evan had an idea of climbing up Bare Mountain. I've been up there many times, given its close proximity to campus. Two out of five times I've climbed it has been at night. It's a great experience and was on board immediately.
The only thing that separated this night hike from the rest was the weather. It was humid, warm, and pouring. Another one of my friends, Noah, pushed the idea and we set out. We reasoned that the climb isn't very long, about 2 hours round trip. Soon we were shirtless in the wind, rain, and darkness of the woods at the foot of the mountain. The rain made getting to the top quite difficult given that most of the trails were water logged and the rocks were slick. Times when the sky really opened up were met with shouts of joy as we jumped from rock to rock. Sweat and rain became one, everything was soaked. The top was covered with a dark gray fog. It looked as if we were actually in the rain cloud. Through it we could make out faint lights and the black outlines of surrounding trees. Moreover, it was completely quiet. As soon as we reached the top the rain ceased and we were left staring into gray nothing. Then it happened. Something I've never seen in my entire life. I heard a large swoosh and the fog parted in front of us, a perfect hole. What made it interesting as at the moment it parted it revealed a street far down below with two cars on it. Without knowing the fog was shifting it scared the christ out of me.The headlights of the car made it look like a plane was headed directly for us. Add in the swooshing sound and all the sense objects were there to fool me. At that we all screamed into the night not believing what we saw. The mountain gave us our gift and then the wind pick up and the rain came back with more force than ever. Being shirtless, soaked, and elevated over a thousand feet in the air was cause for us to seek shelter from the cold.
In my own experiences going up a mountain is the hard part. Coming down it requires less energy as I usually just jump and slide down but factor in rain and wet leaves and you get one horrible situation to get through. The trails were literally streams. Water was pouring over the rocks in countless tiny waterfalls. Once back on the ground and in the secondary woods, we ran full speed back to campus. Here the trail was level, the only obstacles were puddles. We couldn't get any more wet so we just ran through them, barely noticing.
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[16 Sep 2007|06:34pm] |
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so i dropped the class i didnt like. i found one called pollution and our environment which i know will interest me more then the class i was taking. it was confirmed that i would struggle and and do horrible in the class i dropped as i was writing the first paper. it came out terrible and because i wasnt interested in it. it seemed pointless to continue a class that would be so stressful. the only thing that concerns me is catching up with this new class.
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| Hampshire update |
[12 Sep 2007|05:56pm] |
so ive been here for about two weeks and have a had a slew of good experiences. Not unexpectedly, i also have some concerns ad worries. Being that i'm socially inept, making friends is somewhat of a task. I do have people i hang out with but its hard for me to communicate and really open up. that is when the paranoia sets in. i fear that im missing out, i at lke a weirdo and so on. aditionally, more stress was added once classes started up. for the most part, i enjoy my classes but with one exception, language and the mind
it seemed ineresting but after finding out what it really is im not sure if i like it. it basically a psychology class and with that comes a whole new vocabulary. also, there are very intelligent and knowledgeable people in the class and due to that the discussions go over my head and im left there silent. i took a psych clas in high school and really didnt like it so encountering something similar that is disheartening.
so with one tough class and the social poblem weighing down on me i began to feel overwhelmed and somewhat unhappy. i can still drop the class and pick up a new one but the ones available dont interest me. one night as i was searching though the available courses i came across a co-curricular class called beginning kyudo.
kyudo, the way of the bow, is a type of japanese mediation in which the participant focuses on the tools of the trade (bow and arrow) and the eventual release to the target. i signed up and went to my first meeting today. it was pretty intense. It required a lot of form and a lot of concentration and given that the class has met two times prior to today i had to learn rather quickly. after about an hour and half of learning the coordinations leading up to the actual release, i left feeling grounded. i rode my bike to the hampshire tree and felt this great sense of relaxation and was able to take in the magnificent sight of the sunlight reflecting off the swaying grass, the immensity of the sky and clouds and the clam, old and thick hampshire tree.
Hawks have always seemed to pop into my view and the most random and unexpected times. they bring me hope and clam me. earlier today as i was stressing out, i realized that i havnt seen one in a while. actually since i first arrived at hampshire. after my bike ride feeling wonderful, i was pleased to see a hawk not too far off in the distance and then hearing the call of one in another direction, looked up to see two more. it was a comforting sight, a sign of being on the right path.
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[06 Sep 2007|08:52pm] |
Skipping around cnn i saw this headline saying "Bush: "We're kicking ass in Iraq"
I needed to click. it sounded too artificial too stars and strips.
and lo and behold
this picture next to an article containing the most unrealistic content, painted a vibrant red white and blue.
i could picture the desert scene, rugged emptiness with the air of death. Tired troops with tired and homesick faces. But then i could see some of them scrambling around the president with eyes glazed over. All of them with authority boners, chasing honor though murder.
But what comes from this warzone with no end in sight, with no progress yet?
Quotes like these:
"Praising the troops, Bush said, "every day you show bravery under incredibly difficult circumstances. I'm incredibly proud to be the commander in chief of such a great group of men and women."
The excited crowd responded to their commander in chief with hearty cheers and shouts of "ooh-rah!" and "hoo-ah!"
"How is morale?" asked Bush.
"Very high, sir," said the unidentified Marine.
But yea...
does anyone know the answer? I would love to go.
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[27 May 2007|08:38pm] |
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boxers are manhole covers
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[24 May 2007|09:24pm] |
breakfast
eating cereal with milk,
thinking,
cow thoughts
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[16 May 2007|01:42pm] |
Spring flight
The insects take flight above me
electrons orbiting
an invisible nucleus
The hawks take flight
drawing circles
in the endless sky
only to do as hawks do
The trees take flight
only for a moment though
their seeds rain down
land on my head,
a blanket for the ground
I take flight
on this day
a journey of the mind
and a start of something new
I soar into the future
wanting to experience everything at once
but knowing, on this hill
the flight of spring
is here
for me
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[28 Apr 2007|02:33am] |
all will rest
graveyard, small, and out of place
disturbed by the dead inside
gray tombstones make shadows on the grass
their names and numbers barely visible
a squeal not that of a injured pig
but of the injured masses
a roar not that of beast
but of engine,
rouse the ancient dirt and bones
the skeletons inside
the vast mausoleum,
walk.
drawn to one tombstone to the next
high above them
lit and attractive
the numbers are not yet inscribed but
bound to be etched in time
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[10 Apr 2007|08:51pm] |
what a weird month, in all respects.
i've been able to pass time easier than ever.
fucking with a keychain, making tea, and countless other small things have consumed me.
i miss old connections and i miss stability.
i guess it was all going to change by fall anyway.
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[29 May 2005|09:23pm] |
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Iron & Wine- Lions Mane |
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lets sit in the dark and listen to godspeed.
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this week i have off from school. i successfully dodged work because "i am going to the poconos to my aunts house" this would be reasonable if my aunt still lived there but anyway, it worked. now i wonder why did i not go into work. the past two days have been very uneventful. my day consists of:
waking up early around 10am
eating something
watching a few min of tv while eating on the couch
fire up the computer
check for the latest opie and anthony downloads
check lj
hop on aim
listen to music
as i do this i play hl2 or arcanum
and by now its time for dinner.
eat and then its back to the computer.
the thing that really bugs me is that ants not around to talk to anymore. i remember when he didnt work and we would talk for 3 hours about random shit on our days off. now hes at work until 10 or a bit earlier and since my schedule doesnt involve staying up that late (partly because im so bored) im tired by the time he gets online. i have one more day of nothing until john is done with school for the week, ant has no work, band practice, and then it will be friday which i think will be really good. ryan is gonna come over and play with the band. that will yield some good shit. we made a song together and it wasnt finished and now he wants to polish it up and complete it.
you can tell im bored when i use lj.
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well, hello.
i finally got my christmas present after a series of problems. along with this great new "rig" i gained the ability to play the games i suggested to last post. one of which was half life 2. what a wonderful game. stunning graphics, great plot. i finished it up today and now its time to move onto doom 3. to tell you the truth im not too exited for it after playing such a great game like hl2. i might put it on hold and play icewind dale 2. an older game but from what i witnessed and some of which i experienced, looks promising.
school has been going ok. i go there and cant wait to get out. pretty much what happens everyday.
our (me ant and perna) band hasnt been doing to good. havnt had a practice in i dont know a month. mostly becuase of some that dont show. need to reinforce the dedication.
thats it for now. ill post again in 300 days.
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